it's racheelle

 there is an awesome correlation between cutting toxic people out of you life and personal happiness: the more toxic people you cut out of your life, the happier you are. i for one, am the happiest i have been in a very long time. this past month has been by far one of the best times in my life. israel changed my life and umass has been nothing but amazing since i got back. i'm finally enjoying my life and nothing, not even these people, can bring me down anymore =]

 i am potentially going to israel in january.
i am potentially going to israel in january for free.
i am potentially going to israel in january for free with one of my best friends.

now that's awesome.

"im sitting here falling apart, waiting for a call that i know wont come. a call that i believe could save me right now, but the truth is...it cant. i can only save myself. i look around my room and i see pictures of all these people who used to play a huge part of my life, some still do...most of them are now strangers to me. memories surround me, memories that have shaped who i have become. some people weren’t in my life long enough to make it onto the wall but i will still always remember them and how much they meant to me and how they affected me. people always leave, but sometimes they come back. the reasons they leave are always different. some just drift. some get hurt and have to escape the pain.  some make mistakes and have to free themselves from regret. some just weren’t meant to be a big part of your life. some don’t wanna believe they deserve to be in your life. the reason doesn’t really matter, the fact is they leave even if you try to fight back and hold on to them tight. they still leave you standing there alone.  that's when you have to learn to let go and if your lucky enough that person you let go of will return and that’s when you know that they are really meant to be in your life."

this is going to be hella epic.
you will understand soon.... =]

sorry, friends only.